If you ever ask me, why am I doing what I’m doing? Then read this and understand.
For as long as I can remember I’ve been trying to make my mark on the internet. For as long as I’ve loved writing, I’ve loved writing on the internet.
It started off on websites such as Bebo and Myspace. Of course, these things never went anywhere, but I was trying. Also back then I was very vulnerable to negative comments and I hadn’t understood had to take them as constructive criticism. Also back then, people were immature and didn’t understand why I was writing about such serious topics, but when you’ve been forced to grow up fast, it happens.
Therefore I’ve been in and out of writing online for a very long time. Every now and again I will appear on a different website trying to make my mark.
I’ve gone from Myspace to Bebo, to Wattpad, to WordPress, to BlogSpot, to LiveJournal, to Youtube and countless other websites that I don’t even know the name of but signed up in hope that I’ll be able to post my work and it’ll get noticed. Little did I realise back that the website I published on didn’t matter, the social media didn’t matter at all, it was how far I was willing to push myself and keep going.
And now this is what I answer your question with.
I’m trying to make a difference. I’m trying to help others. I write poetry, I hope that even if it is an amateur level that it’ll help someone else is inspired and feel like they can write or share it with the world. I write short stories and plays in hope that someone may find an escape in them and bring my characters to life in their imaginations in a way I never could. I tried my hand at Youtube videos (which I will return too) in hope that someone will find help or peace or advice in one of my few amateur videos. I don’t care about the status I have. I can forever be happy with just being an amateur… an amateur poet, writer, Youtuber, blogger and God knows what else. I just want to help people. I want to inspire people. I want people to be confident and happy in the work they produce.
I now understand that to achieve that I must carry on posting and writing and working no matter what. So what if I have little to no readers/viewers at the moment? At least I’m trying. I’ll keep pushing and one day that ONE person will read them and it’ll help them. I’d rather help just that one person than a million people with what I’m doing. If I can do that, I feel as though I’ve achieved something.
I love writing and I enjoy what I do. I will never again give up on myself, I will no matter give up on this small dream of mine.
I want to help. I want to inspire.
So why am I doing what I’m doing?
Because I want too and that should be good enough for you.
For my dedicated friends, family and followers, I thank you for your continued support and know that I wouldn’t be where I am today without your continued help and support.